This week I am going to get a bit personal, don't worry my faithful followers, we will get back to gaming soon enough.
Such a simple word: "fear". Yet it looms large in our lives. I am a very anxious person, and I mean this is the sense of timid and afraid, not looking forward. I am a "cautious" driver, I worry a lot about a lot of different things all the time, and I lash out. Combine my mother's "Silva Gene" with my father's confidence and you get a very anxious person.
I worry about my wife's health, my relationships with my family, friends, coworkers, and students. I find it almost crippling at time but everyday I get up and try to make it through the day without "Freaking out".
I worry about money, never seems to be enough. I worry about making sure no one knows how little control over life I really have. Like I said, I am an anxious person.
This is mental health awareness month, and I beg you to appreciate the struggles people fight. Depression, anger, anxiety, bi-polar, etc...We don't know what demons tear away at that person who seems to have it together, we need to love each other. Be the one who smiles to the stranger, who holds the hand of a loved one when they are being eaten alive by a monster you cannot see. Be there for each other.
So saying that, sometimes I fear failure more than I would like to admit. If I were to be honest with myself the reason I have not finished the last section of my first book is fear. The last few pages are about the city itself and while I have a lot of notes I am not sure how to present them. I will tomorrow start again and try to finish everything.